(A poem about initiation--part of longer poem called Maps)
At the end of your own road,
you find three paths,
each to be taken, or be taken down.
Waiting, as it were, for a guide
a mentor or a seer to remind you
of what you already know--
That any path will lead you away from
the current dead-end road you live on,
That all three lead into the underbrush,
unseen, unmapped territory of
your own soul.
Many have taken these paths and lived
to convey their experiences in images.
You are not the dumb beast
bred by agribusiness for slaughter.
You are the wise coyote
instinct in tact, living on the edge.
into your own labyrinth
into your own dark passage way.
into dark solitude, the earth’s womb, to
experience the dark moon’s initiation.
You see your lives,
hear voices of your own demons/angels
mistaking them for others
or the OTHER.
Watching with the cold eye of the dead,
in the cold heart of the initiate,
watching in trance
detached, in the dark, alone,
imprisoned by your own
Having to let go of lovers, family, friends,
identities, duties, activities---
nuturing new growth,
until time to birth a new self...
Waiting/hoping for rescue
Waiting for the shaft of light to find your face
Waiting for a Voice to instruct you
Waiting cold and dead
Waiting in trance for the Vision
Waiting to really know through experience
Awestruck in timelessness,
convinced you create your own angels and demons,
responsible for this life and your view,
A Voice asks...
ARE YOU WILLING?
and you must answer........
Later, when you’ve returned above ground,
to the real world
There is certainty and dread
as you recall the experience.
The dread of returning,
the periodic sacrifice of ego to wholeness,
the call to be alone, to mourn, to reflect
to hear the inner prophecy and to
live the judgement and purification
Do not wait until Death’s coldness takes you.
Face the ego mask/hero intellect holds fast your everydays.
Its terrors demon you.
No computer can lead you in this journey,
No loss will be greater than this opportunity.
Others wait their turn
You may be able to help them.
You may become a guide.
You can become a light on another’s path
just as you see a light
on your own dark path now.